Do you ever wonder if you've done what you were meant to do? I like my job but there are so many times I think I was meant to do something else. Pisces people are natural helpers. We want to make things better. When I was thinking about college as a young woman I thought I wanted to be a music therapist. Ever the optimist I thought I could make the world a better place by sharing my love of music in the form of therapy.
That went by the wayside quickly as I got married and had my son, AKA the roommate. My self-fulfillment was stymied by my ex and I began to
think believe I was worthless. It's not easy to believe you are worthy in a situation like that. Every time I see my ex I have the urge to grind my body into the ground. I have to constantly remind myself how much better off I am without him and how far I've come on my own. I dread every instance where we're together. He never misses an opportunity to minimize me.
Bitter? No, it's the way it is. Last week on my granddaughter's birthday my ex made a big point of kissing and hugging my daughter's MIL and saying 'always a pleasure' but to me all he could muster was a less-than-genuine congratulations. Woop-de-damn-do. Truly, if I could get through the rest of my life without ever seeing a single outlaw I would be so happy. So very happy.